the beginning...

I am 23 years old and over time I thought I saw points in my life where I knew where I would be and could see what I would be doing have everything mapped out in life but like I said the key word was thought. Who knew that where Im at now and what Im doing now would be the happiest I have probably ever been, for once I am content. I may not have everything or know all the answers or be able to tell the future but Im content and Im happy and for me thats coming a long ways. If you would have asked me three years ago about my life I probably would have told you that it was great I was on the road to success I had everything that I ever could have wanted but I wasn't looking at the bigger picture I was only looking at what Audrey wanted and what she wanted right now. I've gone away to college and managed to put myself into great debt doing so only to get sidetracked give up on it all and move back home (truth is I was always homesick) but somewhere along the way I figured out my true passions for cosmetology and photography and I have found a way to pursue both. I have been married had the perfect house ready for the perfect family only to find out that every thing is not as perfect as it looks it's all material items and once all of those things run out then what is next? You cant buy love and happiness forever. Material items don't make you happy, they may distract you for a while but for things to work there actually needs to be true love and happiness. So at the ripe age of 23 I have also been divorced, that I could not have planned. I could not have predicted that I would be engaged at 20, married at 21 (almost 22) and divorced at 23 but that's how it worked out and you know what I'm ok with it. The truth is Im the one who has to deal with it not you or anyone else I'm the one who has to deal with what people think about me and I have come to terms with it.

Now I find myself one of the happiest girls in the world (so cliche I know...its true!). I have met the guy for me, my best friend, the one who laughs at me when I am being ridiculous, who doesn't always let me get my way because he knows what is best, things may not always be perfect but their perfect when we are together. And with him comes the most amazing little girl I have ever met. I never pictured myself dating someone who has kids but with Bailey it just comes naturally somehow I have all the patience in the world when it comes to her, I want to be with her all of the time and include her in all of the things we do.

I am creating this blog in order to be able to look back on important memories in life, to actually have things written down. I am writing so Bailey & Jason both have something to read and look back on and see how our family has grown. I am excited to get into the routine of writing this....let the writing begin!